the kind of woman I inspire to become...

gracious. worthy. strong.

beautiful. inspiring. hopeful.

wise. kind. truthful.

compassionate. perservering. humble.

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creative. helpful. thrifty.

intelligent. accomplished. determined.

playful. appreciative. joyful.

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I pray that I become a woman of grace. A figure of compassionate elegance who inspires those around me to love the Lord with every part of who they are. I pray my life never ceases to display His mercy and loving kindness.
Create in me a clean heart, O God. Restore a right spirit within me. Use these hands to create beauty for your glory. From my lips may praises sing and truth resonate. Direct my steps to where you lead.
May my name bring a smile to your heart and a joy to your spirit. May my life song sing a worthy song unto you.

Gone... AGAIN.

Dear mr. army man (sir),

I have come to understand and even appreciate the dedication and service required to serve in the United States Army. Me, being an army fiancée, well I’d like to think that I serve too. Actually, we military spouses (fiancées, significant others…) should really be given an MOS for all the tasks and assignments we carry out and are required to qualify for. Needless to say, I understand the commitment and the sacrifices you ask of your men….. I do however feel the need to tell you sir, that I have spent the last 12 of 14 months without my soldier so that you could use him at your disposal. I have waited hours and hours a day for phone calls lasting only five minutes, spent night after night alone, written hundreds of letters and sent endless amounts of flat rate boxes filled with fun things to keep my soldier smiling… all this to say, I have spent the last 12 of 14 months sharing my soldier, not even sharing really, but waiting my turn. You finally let him come home to me two months ago and I have to admit I am quite possessive of him and his time, but still he faithfully goes to work for you. I am proud to be an army fiancée and feel more pride for him that I can ever express. I thank you for bringing him home to me safely, but sir, why did you feel the need to take him away AGAIN? I know it is a short trip and he is only across the country instead of across an ocean and several countries. But, I’ve waited for three hundred and (almost) sixty-five days, so if would so kindly let me have my turn, because I am NOT ready to share.

safe in His hands.

As I was reading through a new blog tonight, I was blessed to "meet" a miracle. I could try and explain the compassion my heart is swelling with, but perhaps you should discover this little life yourself. read about this beauty from ashes here.

Jesus, you are so precious. Your grace abounding, endless. No one can begin to fathom the depths of your love, your glory and your grace. You see life in the midst of tradegy. Beauty in the midst of pain. Only you can bring peace to a storm with a simple word and fill us with joy when there is none to be found. Praise you Lord for your faithfulness.

Lord, you know better than I.

identity.

now that my soldier is home and deployment is officially over,

it doesn't make much sense to continue writing "deployment thoughts"...

so, my creative task for the day is to decide on a new blog name. Any suggestions?

"Fall Out!"

January 1, 2009 : 0300 hours.
Heroes Welcome Home Ceremony.

**** Company **** Aviation Regiment returned home early New Year's morning after a 12 month deployment; 3 months in moblization, 9 months in country. Read about it here.

Josh's homecoming was one of the most exciting, exhausting, wonderful, emotional days of my life! His flight came in at 3:00 am to the National Guard Base to a freezing 15 degrees below morning! Poor man was frozen stepping off the plane and walking across the flight line. I was so anxious to see him, to know that he was home, really home, no more goodbyes HOME, that I couldn't sleep more than an hour the entire night before. He called me from the demobilization base and from the airport....but it still seemed like a call from across the world even when I knew he was only 5 or 6 hours away. Theres something about separate time zones now...they seem to be more like separate planets. But finally we were counting the same hours. Waking up at the same time and standing in the same room! The Heroes Welcome Home Ceremony only lasted about 10 minutes. Long enough to stand in formation and hear the blessed words, "FALL OUT!" It was freezing, all the families overjoyed but half awake... needless to say, everyone was more than willing to claim their soldier and finally take them home. All day I kept staring at him, hugging him, kissing him, and asking him if he was home to stay. (In fact, its been 6 weeks and I STILL do that!)

I love my Soldier.

AT LAST...

At last, my love has come along,

My lonely days are over,

And life is like a song,

Ohhh at last

The stars above are blue

My heart was wrapped up in clover,

The night I looked at you

I found a dream that I could speak to,

A dream that I, can call my own,

I found a thrill, to press my cheek to

A thrill that I, have never known,

Ohhh you smile, you smile

And then the spell was cast

And here we are in heaven, for you are mine, at last!

After 349 days, my soldier is finally in my arms. in the same room. in the same country. on the same CONTINENT. and I can call HIM.

It seems surreal at times...to see him and know he's here, and realize that he is home for good. I still see soldiers and tear up, or hear a song that reminds me of a lonely day..it keeps me praying for all those loved ones whose soldiers are still across seas being heroes with every webcam session and 5 minute phone call.

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I saw him for the first time since his leave in June on December **th when his unit stopped at the *** International Airport on their way to demobilization. For a bliss hour and a half, I was able to stare into those gorgeous eyes and actually hold his hand! That morning was a little crazy...I couldn't sleep a wink the night before, and at 2 am they changed the arrival time of his flight to 6 am! Running on about 2 hours of sleep I got to the airport with a belly full of butterflies and waited for 3 hours until he finally arrived (at the original time...) There were so many emotions that day; so many families- army wives, children, newborn babies who had yet to meet their mommy or daddy. It is strange, yet entirely understood, to stand in a room full of strangers and feel completely connected and unified through empathy. It was so wonderful to see my soldier and hold him and tell him that I loved him face to face. I left knowing that it would be the last goodbye before I would welcome him home for good!

Finally. all mine.

so this is love...

I have no idea what he was in the middle of saying, but I was adoring him. : )

Home Sweet Home...

Its finally over, deployment is finished. completed. accomplished. (applause anyone?) My soldier has been home for almost 6 weeks now, but I simply couldn't bring myself to post anything until ALL the deployments were over. It didn't seem joyous to write about my soldier's homecoming until my best friend had her own day and held her soldier in her arms too... so my lovely Kate, tonight your soldier is home in your arms, and all is well. No more sleepless nights, no more terrorizing dreams, or lonely days and heavy hearts. Our soldiers are home, safe and sound. We are finished! You are such a treasure to me, I am so blessed to have had your strength this year and to have grown in the Lord together. Praise Jesus our soldiers are home sweet home. HOOAH!






... so, now I will soon post MY Welcome Home Heroes Ceremony!...